The Rise

8 am, you told me to come over and babygirl I was vulnerable so I came anyway

8 30 I arrived, she told me I got an hour, that’s fine

She cooked me breakfast, had a conversation, then she met my head for two minutes

Then a nigga walked away

Should I feel guilty because I don’t see us in the future so I hope you cool

With this….

Before this I was intimate with an ex who sent me a text about the same time 

A chain reaction of greedy and it was about that time to

Go deep in the pussy, hoping I come up missing, I left her legs shaking 

But after that, it was just awkward….

And I hate it….oh I waited…two weeks later…

Little does she know, if she came at me now, she would need a wheelchair for a day

Before this I broke up with my ex on the day of the NFL draft 

Shivers all up on my calf

Crying down the guilt, stressing bout nothing, why the hell we split no banana

Maybe I wasn’t strong for her, maybe I let her friends ruin us, maybe she was right about the one that everyone seems to be competing with but its unfair 

Yall shouldn’t care, she isn’t here, if I date you then you’re winning but you’re losing when you have the thought of her in your head

But who am I to blame, I blame myself for putting them through this

Truth be told, I am losing because of the women with their potential, I haven’t truly given my all because of miss virgo

You know, her name rhymes with virgo and its crazy how her and my ex have signs I am compatible…with

If I had my way, you would’ve stop playing all these, then I would gave these girls a true chance and then you would’ve came back saying i’m yours and then I would reply

Adios….

I know a girl that wants me but she too afraid of commitment, maybe she’s scared of her feelings, the insecurities, me being attached and the rest…well

She encourages the wrong things because she don’t want them to happen and I just yell in my soul saying “you need to make a move so I can focus on you and forget these nines”

Knowing her, she’ll kill the convo and a nigga feelin lonely, horny as hell everyday, celibate for 7 months and its not by choice

Or maybe it is…maybe it is…but who hasn’t gone through this ?

She comes back in my life, i’m tryna have you in my life, i’m not tryna live a double life because there’s no wrong in every right 

You don’t know that I hear things….do you…do you…secrets of the union

The fact I don’t wanna know who you been screwing…

I was in love at 15…my heart was broken during my junior year and I try to rekindle it in the summer…you know before we went to college

But I wasn’t being honest because her and someone else I was focused…on

Should I blame myself ? no really should I ?

Why am I a nice guy and why do I love her ?

There’s something about her…but a mystery i’m solving with you

But should I stress it because I not gonna waste energy if i’m not one of the main you fucking with

Virginia is old, Philly will be cold on a nigga, NY kinda tired of a nigga

Here’s my heart, I will leave it on a platter for you niggas

And i’m talking bout the women that I could see myself marry until someone makes forget about….you

Can I move on….can I move on